a toast to crazy people and freak flags :)

Sometimes life can really mess you up.   I used to go about my days thinking that there were certain things about my life that I really KNEW FOR SURE, and then one day, I woke up in a nightmare, and realized that there is no FOR SURE in this life.  I never really understood the expression “coming undone”…but this morning, I’m thinking maybe I do, maybe I am. I keep seeing stories about people who hit rock bottom and because of it, were able to create new and (maybe for the first time) fulfilling lives for themselves.  But first they had to hit, to break, to be labeled as “the incoherent crazy lady”, to completely obliterate the lives that they once knew, in order for the metamorphosis to begin…

I used to say to my kids “If you see crazy coming down the street, cross to the other side”.  But recently I’ve had a change of heart on the matter.  What if you see crazy staring back at you in the mirror one morning, like some uninvited guest you can’t get rid of.  At some point you’re going to have to embrace crazy. You’re going to have to invite crazy in for coffee and make your peace with her.  Perhaps you’ll find that crazy is not as bad as you once thought.  Perhaps crazy helps you retrieve your dusty ”freak flag” from under the bed.  You know… the one you used to wave so proudly when you were young and knew it all and didn’t give a shit what others thought.  Perhaps you realize you really like crazy, prefer her even, and you want her to stay forever.  I used to fear crazy, now she’s my BFF!!! OK…it’s my blog.  I can go off on a metaphoric rant if I want to, I’ve earned it    Bad things happen, but life goes on, things get better…Happy New Year!   (and, if you remember, drink a toast to crazy people and freak flags!!!)

eat, sleep, love… living with zen masters

I live with 3. My dogs Daisy (yellow lab) and Bella (yorkie-poo) , and a kitty named Kiwi. Their days are simple and to the point…eat, sleep and love.  I sit here in wonder of these beautiful creatures whose daily goal is to find someone in this house that they can give and receive love from.  Ok sometimes Kiwi could care less, maybe more like eat, sleep and leave me alone till I’m good and ready to give you love, but that’s a cat for you.

Merry after-Christmas!!

I don’t know why I just couldn’t get into the Christmas spirit this year.  We have enough stuff that we don’t really need.  So why am I out buying more stuff.  I’m trying to get away from all this…stuff.  To declutter.  Less stuff, more space.  My new mantra. But of course that didn’t stop me for participating in the maddness of it all.  When my husband asked me what I wanted, I was only too happy to proclaim my love for the buddha fountain at ZGallerie.  Surely this floating buddha will bring me much closer to the peace and serenity my heart craves…right?  Oh I have no idea… but my buddha (on backorder) is on it’s way!

Take No Offense

Below is the Daily Inspiration Quote of the Day from Wayne Dyer’s website.  This is one area I really need to work on.  Being offended all the time just sucks the energy right out of you and is so unproductive.  Note to self…next time you feel the need to feel offended, GET OVER IT!  Thank you Wayne!

TAKE NO OFFENSE

That which offends you only weakens you. Being offended creates the same destructive energy that offended you in the first place—so transcend your ego and stay in peace.

Julie/Julia Movie

Just watched Julie Julia again.  Loved it…again !  It’s about how writing a blog, in this case Julie writing about Julia Child and french cooking, can change a life.  I started this blog as a way to document my constant quest for achieving greater peace in my life.  I don’t think there is one hard and fast way to achieving a more peaceful life.  Everyone’s peace road is different.  My goal here is to share my journey, in whatever form it takes.

Got Peace?

I’ve always got a stack of self-help books on my nightstand. I’ve been searching for inner peace for….ever, it seems, and my husband wants to know how it is that I still haven’t found it.  Good question.   I’ve read all the greats, Wayne Dyer, Eckhart Tolle, books written by monks and nuns…and still nothing.  I think I have ADD.  Seriously.  I can’t seem to focus.  My mind wanders incessantly… playing mental hopscotch jumping from thought to thought.   How am I supposed to find peace when I live in constant fear of losing my mind?